one more week...

One more week...

one More week...

one more Week...

however you say it, whatever word you put the acctent on..

its just one more week, and i cant wait to get out of here.. (this house that is)

even before the tear falls.. You are here

James 1:5 (The Message)

^5-8"If you don't know what you're doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You'll get his help, and won't be condescended to when you ask for it. Ask boldly, believingly, without a second thought. People who "worry their prayers" are like wind-whipped waves. Don't think you're going to get anything from the Master that way, adrift at sea, keeping all your options open. "

God really does speak when you need him too.. he really does know what we need..
I'm very much thankful for that! because.

I'm also thankful to know that through my stuggle i will someday be strong, so why wouldnt satan try to break me and stop me while im weak..

...

take my hand, take my heart, take my pain, take my tears...

i want to forget all this.. pretend it never happened. but i cant..

i cant do this without my God right now..

its been a few days..
umm.. lets see. moving day is getting closer. i'm pretty sure my boss doesnt think im really leaving yet. i dont want to be a jerk to him but i think that might be the only way he gets it through his head that i'm going home.
I havent slept well the past few days.. just toss and turn. I have this feeling (which kinda leans toward a fear) that God is up to something big. What it is i dont know.. but i just feel like i need to start praying and preparing for whats to come in my life.. or others who are around me in their lives.. who knows!
emotions stink.. i dont like them much and being a girl i have to deal with them.. and i stink at dealing with them!
here is to another day. to live, to laugh, to love.. i want to make today count. turn things around. start the work today in this next journey...

Here i go..

I Spy with my Naked Eye..

1. a piece of a Cheeto
2. 2 open mountain dew cans
3. ashes from my roommates cigarettes
4. a Jon and Kate plus 8 commercial
5. 2 pens and 1 marker
6. 4 "happy meal" toys..?
7. 33 text messages
8. blogstop
9. junk...
10. boxes that are holding my things for when i get out of here..

Yep, i started packing.. im looking forward to getting out of my apartment and moving on!
day after day.. i feel like im going to go just a little crazy.. i need to get out of this place.. it just makes me frustrated and not "at home" So.. lets just this ball rolling!

Also today i realized about how often God allows us to show compassion for those who hurt, or offend us.. well when i got home God tested me on it.. and i FAILED!! oh i failed big time.. no compassion in my heart when walked it.. it was like ALL the compassion that was in me earlied today just flew.. and i mean flew! out the window.. oops

puppy love..

Andria and i went to see some dogs at the Humaine Society today.. broke our hearts!

Berry the 3 year old Huskie.. i just wanted to take him home, and as i sat petting him and i just thought about what his life might have been like before this time of being locked up. He was skinny, timid, just looked like his heart was broken too.. it those things that make me what to get a dog ever more.

And Andria fell in love with Tator.. (isnt that just cute.. i know you like it andria!) he was a cute little tard nugget! oh.. andria you should go get him and name him Nugget!! i like it! :)

i have a road in front of me.. and it almost is a scary thought to get it all out, to expose my secrets.. to not hold back, to be open and honest.. its scary, and its setting in now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2naYghOqM0s

"she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down..

so stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain"

That pretty well says it.. it all says it right there..

ahhh...

my feets are sleeping... :@

...i have so much on my mind...

the world is watching us from a distance
wanting more from their own existence
tell me how do we make a difference
for eternity does anybody want to know why we're alive

oh oh oh oh
what's the purpose of this life?

oh oh oh oh
before i die and i leave the world behind
i want to know why i'm alive
you're created for the creator to live inside

there's a hole in your soul and i know that you try
to fill it with every little thing but the very one who can heal it
and bring hope to a world that wants to know why they're alive
spirit cry for this generation (generation)we're chasing the wind trying to embrace it

open our eyes to all the lies that we try to justify when deep down inside
all we want to find is someone that loves us all of the time and it's you

yea it's you oh oh
only you

yes it's you oh oh oh

you're beautiful came down from heaven just to save my save my soul
beautiful oh oh oh oh oh

you're so beautiful

the people of this world are praising you and they are
beautiful oh oh oh oh

you're so beautiful came down from heaven just save my save my soul
beautiful oh oh oh oh oh

NOW I'M BEAUTIFUL :)

meeting love...

I know im never alone, i know my heart cant just be givin away without my consent...

I can rest in knowing that no matter what.. through any storm i have a God who loves me.. Who will never leave me, not forsake me.. we have an UnBreakable, UnTouchable, UnShakeable relationship!

I have a passion to let others know they matter, to be with them, to laugh with them, and even serve them.. i have a passion for India that will never leave my heart!

I have a peace in knowing that it will all be okay.. its one step at a time, its one moment at time.. one word, one sentance, one paragraph, one chapter.. one breath, one song, one hurt, one joy....

it takes time to think things through, it takes time to know its alright, it take times to know that no one can control you... but it all stops and time almost seems to stand still when the hairs on your arm raise up and the only think i can seem to say or think is.. "hey God..." and from there i become speachless so often, i lose all my words and just come face to face with... LOVE!

i told you i like blogging..

one of my friends did one of these "25 random things" on facebook.. and these can be way to fun! so kids.. here we go

25 Random things about Miss. Alicia Christine

1. "perfect" and "normal" should be outlawed.. they arent real
2. i have a huge fear or being forgotten about
3. 3rd times really isnt really the "charm"
4. I get nervous to try new things infront of alot of people incase i suck at it
5. I'm skipping around on all the numbers to fill this out.. going 1 to 25 in a row.. seems boring
6. this is my last random thing to fill out (told you it wasnt in order!)
7. this is my favorite number but i have no logic behind it what-so-ever
8. Jon and Kate plus 8 is AMAZING, and my favorite child is Aden (i think its because of his glasses!)
9. i hate when i swear.. i dont sound like me
10. i LOVE juice!
11. when i dont know what to do or what to say.. i wish i was invisable
12. my senior year of high school made me realize that i could really be someone if i tried
13. you can tell by my punctuation who i really feel when i right.
14. this morning i woke up.. and i was happy :)
15. im scared to get married and grow old because when if my husband doesnt like me once we grow old, or instead of growing together... what if we grow apart?
16. I havent filled anything out like this since i was a MySpace freak (glad those days are over)
17. sometimes when i pray i think.. "i wonder if God gets bored of my ramblings"
18. i took a nap today and regretted it because i hate being more tired when i wake up
19. scary movies dont scare me.. i just think they are too overrated.. thats why i hate them
20. i refuse to go to a bar on my 21st birthday.. probably because im scared to get drunk
21. Candy's little brother, Caleb, is one of the sweetest and funnest person ever!
22. i wish i was "artsy"
23. i wanted to make something in my crock pot for a long time and have yet to get around to it.
24. i prefer more jelly then peanut butter on my PB&J sandwiches
25. I've had to think hard about everyone of these random facts ( and i have 6 numbers left..)

it all starts somewhere.. maybe in you?

"Never Doubt that a small committed group of people can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that has."
**Margaret Mead

i remember this from back in high school in the hallway between the band and choir rooms, and when i first saw it and when i was just reminded of it i thought the same thing..

"yeah.. i agree"

its so true.. im a very strong believer in that everyone has a voice, and everyone has a passion, now my thought is this..

What would happen if everyone used that voice and followed that passion with EVERYTHING they had? what would this world look that? What would people act like?

everything starts with a wish, a dream, a thought, a word..
i want to change the world.. i always have, and it all starts with me and my hope and dream. My commitment. My love. My passion.

let it start this moment...

taking a breath in...

its been a day..
i long long day and its silly..
i got an answer to a question that i needed answered so, its okay!

i keep being reminded that in my time of weakness is when i am able to become strong.

I have a Blog!

this is an exciting moment! I've been told about how i would love blogging.. so HERE WE GO!! (i so sang that like the Nsync song! oh boy this is going to be fun!
so i got a toad on the top of my page and i'd like to bring him into my blogging sessions at times! i think he needs a name.. maybe Moe?
I think this blogging this will be fun because i love writing at times its just to say one thing! oh it will be fun for me and my memories!
okay.. see random central going on already! (and way too many "excited marks" :)
this moment is nice.. this blog with "moe" is nice.. this day (minus this stupid cast on my wrist) has been nice.. im blessed and i dont see or say that enough in my life. Probably because i dont take the time to notice it like many people do. I am blessed. It sounds odd but i really have come to love being broken, to have my heart bleeding in my hands when i have nothing left, to know i have friends who are family who have allowed me to speak my mind and scream out my fears. I am blessed. I dont deserve some of the people ive been blessed with. i have passions that cry out from my heart that i want to experiance. Like India.. i miss it, i love it, i want it! i'm thankful for what i've been through in my life, even in this day. I'm broken, and joyful for it..